Welcome To Earth David

Just a quick notice to let you all know I have a new blog in addition to this site. I call it “Man Planet - The Hottest Men On Earth According To Me The Number 1 Man Fan”. Nothing to brag about really. It’s just another male photo blog. As if there aren’t already a million of them all over the internet. Well go check it out at Man Planet Keep in mind I just started this thing tonight so there isn’t much there but I’ll be adding more to it. Later!

I did not write the following passage, but I couldn’t have said it better myself….. September 11th in one way or another changed all of our lives, it brought all of us together and reminded all of us just how vulnerable we are. September 11th will always be remembered as a tragedy, a day that altered the course of our nation forever. We should also remember it as a day when our nation came together and said in one voice we stand united with the workers of the World Trade Center, workers in the Pentagon and the families of Flight 93 victims. We should remember the candlelighting’s that took place in cities across the country, the American flags that decorated trees and houses across the nation in numbers never yet seen. We should remember the heroes that ran toward the danger, willing to trade their lives to help another, we remember the members of law enforcement and fire departments across the country who drove to New York and said today our baseball rivalries and our political affiliations don’t matter, we are one. We should remember on that day that America stood with one voice, no matter the age, no matter the skin color, no matter the gender that we stood shoulder to shoulder as one and said we will never forget.

I will never forget that day. I was just 10 days over my 31st birthday and I was working in the communications field at the time in a fiber optic network operations facility. We always had a television turned on to the CNN news channel so I remember seeing the footage of the first plane crash into one of the towers when everyone was trying to figure out what the hell happened. I remember thinking some stupid ass pilot had really screwed up and wasn’t watching where he was going….. hey it could happen right. I thought ok maybe it’s not such a big deal really…. it was just an accident…. but then the news camera’s focused onto the other plane and then it showed the plane was heading for the other tower…… and I remember as soon as I saw the other plane about to hit the tower I knew immediately it had to be a terrorist attack and I remember feeling my heart sink in my chest when I realized all of the people that were in that plane were about to die…. and then the second crash happened and the towers blew up in flames…… people jumped from the towers because the heat was so intense and then the towers crashed down. 2,792 or more people were killed that day.

Today my heart goes out to all of the families who lost a loved one on that tragic day. God bless America. God bless the world. We need all the blessings we can get.

Some may find this boring as hell. Some may say that I have absolutely no life at all. Yesterday was my 38th birthday and I celebrated it by staying at home watching television and working on my craft projects. I have been doing a lot of yarn stash busting so I knitted scarfs all day. I had thought about going out to do some shopping, but then I couldn’t think of anything I needed so I just turned on the tv and sat in my living room knitting. I played my video games as well. I’m still very much into Puzzle Quest so I spent a couple of hours playing that game. All in all my birthday was alright but I’m feeling kinda cheated though because I didn’t go out and buy myself anything. I always buy myself something for my birthday. It has been a tradition for me since my very first job in 1988 to buy myself something for my birthday, so I may have to go on a little shopping trip today. Maybe I’ll go to Gamestop and see if there are any cool used games on the rack. Or maybe I’ll just stay at home again today and knit some more. Who knows?

First off I want to apologize to all of my readers for not updating lately. I’ve just kinda been kicking back at home just chillin’ out and playing my video games, working on craft projects, and watching the rain outside from my living room window. We have been getting a lot of rain for the past week! It looks like the next few days might be sunny however. Some of you may have noticed that I haven’t posted a Monday Muscle Madness post this week, and I can’t remember if I posted it last week either. Well, I think I’m going to stop the Monday Muscle Madness thing and take on a new venture with a new blog on blogger where I’ll be sharing a higher volume of my favorite hot guy pictures that I’ve collected over the years. I figured I’ve collected them, I may as well share some of them. So I’ve been trying to come up with a clever name for the blog. Something really cool and unique to start it off with, but so far I haven’t come up with any bright ideas yet. So over the next few days I’m just going to try getting some of my pictures organized and ready for uploading to the new blog when it gets ready to go. It should be pretty fun and it just may be more exciting than my personal blog here on this site haha.

Most all of you out there who reads my blog don’t know that I work only on the weekends and have Monday through Thursday off every week. I guess I’m writing this post to make all of you jealous out there because while most everyone is at work sweating their balls off today, I am sitting at home watching music videos on YouTube, playing my video games, and enjoying not having to do anything at all. Monday’s for me are the best days out of the week. Those are the days when I can plan to do anything I want to do, or plan not to do anything at all. As I write this post it is currently 10:41 a.m. and I have no idea what I’m gonna do with the rest of the day and do you know what…. it doesn’t matter what I do today, because it is Monday and I don’t have to do anything at all. So, for all of you out there working today, just think of me sitting at home enjoying the lazy life. Try not to be too jealous hehe.

This entry is all about my new goal to start saving money and how I plan to find ways of doing that.

Obviously the easiest way to save money is not to spend money, right!? Well for the last two days my goal has been to stay at home and find things to do so that I wouldn’t get out and spend any money. The reason for that is because over the past few months I have really been splurging on a lot of excessive spending and I have gotten way behind on my savings goal for this year. I mean I have gotten waaaayyyyy behind. It is sometimes very hard for me to save my money because over the past couple of years since I started managing my money a little better than before I have gotten into a bad habit of impulse buying and I have a bad attitude of thinking if I want it I should have it and then I buy it just because I want it and just because I have the money to spend at the moment. That isn’t always a bad thing most of the time if I have the extra money to spend because there have been times in my life when I couldn’t buy anything that I wanted and because of that I feel like I deserve to get anything I want anytime I want it. Right now however I need to stop splurging so much and get back on track with my savings before I end up in the poor house again like where I was two years ago.

Two things that are really eating my wallet right now is my addiction to getting outdoors and my Nintendo Wii. I love to go to the lake to enjoy the scenery and go for walks. The problem with that is I love it too much and it is a 40 mile round trip every time I go. I usually go twice a week. I drive a big 2001 Dodge 1500 pickup truck that is a gas hog and I can easily use up a quarter of a tank of gas or more going to and driving around to the different park areas around the lake that I like to go to. I’d say I average spending around $25 bucks a week on gas alone just going to the lake. That doesn’t account for the money I spend stopping at a fast food place for something to eat along the way and for the ice and drinks I buy to fill up the cooler that I keep on the back of my truck… you know I have to keep cold drinks with me out there in the heat or else I would thirst to death and I am one of those people who have to constantly have something to drink all the time. So that bumps it up easily to around $35 to $45 bucks a week just going for joy rides around the lake and drinking cold cokes and gatorade and eating taco bell or arby’s every week to get outdoors. Now add to all of that my newest addiction to video games since I bought my Nintendo Wii awhile back. I have already easily spent $450 to $500 bucks on the console itself plus extra controllers and video games. That in itself has taken a huge chunk out of my savings. I’m not complaining about it too much though because I have thoroughly been enjoying playing my Wii games. The only problem here, once again, is that I am enjoying my new Nintendo Wii so much that I don’t think about how much money I’m spending on the games and those games can be fairly expensive. I have thought about taking up a membership at GameFly to rent video games like I rent my movies from Netflix. Yes I know that would be an extra $22 bucks more a month that I would be spending but this would be a good way for me to find games I like instead of going out to buy games that I end up not liking, which luckily has only happened once so far.

So having realized what my faults are for not being able to save my money lately as I should be doing I am trying to discipline myself which isn’t an easy thing for me to do when it comes to splurging.

Yesterday I spent the whole day at home downloading some new remixes, playing video games and watching television. Yesterday was Monday so of course you know I watched WWE Raw which is my favorite show to watch. After that I watched Burn Notice and Monk and went to bed soon after. Today is Tuesday which is normally my favorite day to go to the lake. However I have been at home all day fighting the urge to get outdoors by trying to get some things done and scratched off of my To Do List which I started adding things to three months ago. If I can make myself stay at home and work on this to do list for at least three days out of the week and really focus my attention on not splurging on expensive games and other stuff then I think I can get myself back up on my savings. Today I just need to focus on staying here at home and not going out to spend any money.

I have too many goals and things I need that I’m not getting because of my splurging so I’m hoping my to do list will help me get where I want to be. It is going to take a lot of time and effort however. Things I’m talking about staying home and saving my money for are getting a new apartment, buying new furniture, paying off my truck, getting a new big screen television… you know nice things. I can’t get those things if I’m spending all of my money on lots of little things here and there. So it is my goal right now to spend more time at home enjoying the things I have now and hopefully get lots of things done on my to do list so that I can get a better home, some better and more comfortable furniture, a better lifestyle, and still keep up on my savings. I’m also going to make it a goal to blog about this and things I am doing to keep up on my savings. I might also create a new page with ideas I come up with to keep saving money.

I haven’t really had a whole lot to blog about this week. I just noticed also that I didn’t do the normal Monday Muscle Madness post this week….. ooops! Sorry. I’ve kinda just been in a slow motion state of mind this week I guess. Sometimes I need a week of carelessness to refocus my mind on the things I need to be doing. Call it a short break from life that I am having right now…. yeah, that’s it. About the only things that I have gotten done so far this week…. well lets see…. Monday I spent the whole day at home playing Wii Sports Bowling…. Tuesday I spent part of the day out at the lake enjoying the scenery and sunshine which was interrupted by a phone call from my mother who had to make an emergency trip to Panama City, Florida to babysit my niece and guess who was nominated to drive her down there…. it was me…. yayyyyyyyy. So I frantically grabbed everything and jumped in my truck so that I could get home and drive her down there…. but halfway home I forgot that left my laptop on a picnic table and had to go back to the park and get it….. then I drove home and took a shower and went to pick up my mom for the four hour drive. We didn’t leave home until 8:30 p.m. and didn’t get to my brothers house until right around midnight last night. I spent the night and got up this morning and drove home. When I got home I cut my grass and did some laundry and then went shopping…. I didn’t buy anything major…. just a few groceries and new video game, a t-shirt, and a hat. And now I am at home and I am so glad that I don’t have to do anything tomorrow. All I plan to do tomorrow is play video games. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that I also attempted to start writing a new personal journal this week because a lot of crazy shit happens to me that I want to write about but don’t want the whole world to know about, but I failed at that attempt so maybe I’ll try to start on it next week when I go have my quiet time somewhere.

A letter I wrote tonight to someone who can still make me cry…
This originally started out as some poetry I was trying to write, but it ended up being more.

I CAN’T COMPETE WITH THAT

I’m sorry I had to write this but for some stupid reason I started crying after I got off the phone with you this evening. Isn’t that funny. 16 years later and I still cry….

It’s been years since I sent that letter saying mean things to you, and I don’t remember what all I said back then but I have regretted saying all those mean words ever since. I was just so angry that you had found someone after me and I had been waiting for a chance to get back to see if you might come find me. I was angry that it wasn’t me you were going to spend your life with, and there were some other things that contributed to my madness as well regarding those letters. That was around 14 or 15 years ago.

I don’t blame your partner for being so jealous of you then, and even more so jealous of you now. He’s had 14 years with you, and those 14 years of happiness and joy that he’s got goes far beyond the 16 years of a fucked up life that I’ve had since I last saw you. He got to go where I wanted to go, with you. He got to live the life that I wanted to live, with you. He got your love that I wanted so bad. It took me 12 years to fully get over not having you in my life. There were times during those years that I didn’t care if I was dead or alive because you weren’t there, and I know that it is for that reason alone that I never got any farther in life than I did. I was too depressed to try. Yeah I missed you that bad. I still miss your silly ass sometimes… just not as bad these days I guess… maybe…whatever …. Anyway….

You’ll never know what I went through in my mind after you were gone. You’ll never know what you meant to me and how hard it was to let you go, even after I knew that it wasn’t and would never be my place to be with you. I’ve spent many years knowing that the only dream I ever really had will never come true…. and that was the dream I had to be with you… a dream that has long faded away. I have faced the fact that I will go on living and never have what he has with you and that no matter who I may eventually end up with, if I end up with anyone at all, it will never feel like the right life for me because there will always be a small part of me in my heart that won’t let you go… but I will try to be happy with it, just like I am trying to be happy just being your friend and because of the blessing I have recieved for having your friendship I would never do or say anything to come between you and him.

I look at myself now, and listen to you talk about how wonderful your partner is and how great your lives are together, along with all the wonderful things that you guys do together….. the extravagant vacations, all the expensive toys, the houses, paying all those big bills and enjoying the big money lifestyle and I know that I could never have made you happy because I couldn’t have supported the lifestyle you love so much. For everything that I am, everything I’ve ever been, and for everything that I may or may not ever be, I have nothing that can compete with what you have with your partner. As much as it hurts sometimes to hear how happy you are with him and with your life, it makes me happy knowing that your living a great life and that you have someone who loves you that much to be so jealous the way he is. That is something I’ve never had and I wish I knew what that felt like.

I wish that I could go back in time and rewrite that letter to say how happy I am that you guys found each other. Then maybe I wouldn’t have to feel so bad that we all can’t just be friends and laugh about days gone by. You have something amazing with that man and I find it so hard to believe that after all of these years that he would get mad knowing that we have talked as friends and nothing more. If he could read what I am writing right now he would see that he has nothing to be jealous about. I wish that I could tell him myself how sorry I am for fucking up what might have been a great friendship with you guys so many years ago… or even if it might not have turned out that we’d all be friends at least I would like for him to know that I am sorry about those letters. I was a screwed mess back then. I had lost the one thing that up until that time in my life I had found that I loved, which was you, and the other guy I was with before I found out about you and your partner blew his brains out with a pistol. The two guys I loved most in my life back then were gone and there was nothing I could do about it…. so now you know why I was so crazy back then… but I’m over all that now and I am so thankful for all the little phone calls we have and for the chance to say we are friends….. but sometimes I have to wonder how far that friendship goes because if something were to ever happen to you I would never know it. And the reason I wouldn’t know it is because nobody would call me to tell me. And the reason nobody would call me to tell me is because nobody even fucking knows that I’m here.

I know it may sound like I’m fussing and raising hell, but I’m not. I’m actually quite sad. I’m sad that you can’t be honest with your partner about us talking AS FRIENDS and I’m sad that our friendship may never go beyond a phone call every now and then. But if thats all our friendship can be I’ll be happy with that. I’ll take the phone calls over not being able to talk at all any day. I just wish you could tell your partner about it and not be so afraid that he would get mad and I wish that he was better understanding about it. I love you Donald. I always have and I always will. And I love Chuck as well even though I don’t know anything about him…. I love him because he has taken care of you all these years. I think he has done a lot more for you than I would have ever been able to. You should let him know that. Maybe he won’t be so jealous anymore.

Ok so I wouldn’t know Adidas Logo 2 from Adidas Logo 1… whatever! But I do know that I just scored a really good deal on these brand new shoes on ebay. This is the first pair of shoes I have ever bought online and I am a little skeptical about the purchase. I have always gone to a shoe store where I could try on the shoes before I bought them to make sure they fit ok so you can imagine why I was skeptical about bidding on these shoes. The big reason however why I did bid on them is because the “buy it now” price was only $23.99 + $9.00 shipping for a total of only $32.99 which is a great deal I think on a pair of Adidas shoes. Other considerations that played into my buying these shoes online were 1.) the sky high price of gas and the fact that I didn’t really care to make a special trip to go buy a new pair of shoes, and 2.) I really need a new pair of shoes because the nice pair of shoes I bought just a few months ago are already worn out. Actually I need a couple of two or three new pairs of shoes because I go through shoes like a fish goes through water if that makes any sense. My shoes get dirty very quickly and it sucks a lot of times when I want to go do things like just go to the mall and all I have are one pair of dirty shoes to wear. You can’t go to the mall with dirty shoes on. People will look at you like you are a fucking bum. So I guess I’ll be looking for more good deals on shoes on ebay if these turn out to fit ok. I think for the price I paid these are a decent looking pair of shoes.

In keeping this website and writing in my blog I have one rule that I strictly adhere to… I do not under any circumstances write about my job or where I work, but only for this post I will make an exception. I don’t know if I am right about this, but I kinda have a sneaky suspicion that my blog has been found by a person that I work with. It’s not anything that really surprises me, as I knew it was bound to happen at one point or another. It’s just kinda weird knowing that someone out there who thought they knew me is out there reading what I’m writing and really getting to know me for who I really am…. you know, the person outside of the job. I don’t really care about it to be honest. This is not my first website and it definitely isn’t the first time I got “discovered” on the internet. I mean…. I have videos on You-Tube, pictures all over dozens of websites that I won’t mention in this post, literally thousands of comments I’ve posted on other blogs that link back to my website…. so it was only a matter of time before someone I knew from work found my spot here.

But like I said, I’m not sure that this person really knows about my website. It was just a suspicion I got after he made a comment to another co-worker I was having a conversation with. The comment he made was something like “stop talking, get his blog address and leave him a comment”… or something along that line. I’m thinking he probably was just trying to be funny, but what adds to my suspicion is that this person knows I spend a lot of time online. Maybe he googled me, who knows, who cares? I certainly don’t. But you know how it is… when one person finds out, the whole goddamn planet will know it and if word spreads about my website at work, then a lot of people are going to be surprised I think, or maybe not. I don’t think I have any secrets that I hide. In the past few years I’ve gotten to be pretty honest about answering straight forward questions with a straight forward answer. If a person is not afraid to ask me about something then I am usually not afraid to answer them honestly as I have somewhat discovered, however it is not always true, that those who do ask the questions are the ones you can trust the most. So I don’t think I’ve written anything in this blog that would surprise any of my co-workers all that much…… but it’s still kinda weird knowing he or they are out there “reading” me. Whatever!

I already posted this on my Glee Profile Page but if you weren’t one of my friends or contacts there then you would have never gotten to read this and I didn’t feel like writing it all over twice so I copied my blog post from there to here. So here it goes……

Over the last few weeks I have been trying to spend more time getting outdoors to go walking and try to burn some calories so I can lose my love handles. It’s been fun but I have a blister on my left big toe that just won’t go away. Either I am walking too much or I need better shoes. I don’t know. I have always been a long distance walker from the time I was a kid growing up until now in my late 30’s and never had a problem that much with blisters that I can remember. It’s not really a big deal. It’s more annoying than anything else. Anyway……. the summer is going great so far with my walking program. This past Monday I walked over 9 miles in 4 hours…….. hmmmmm maybe that’s why I can’t get rid of the darn blister

I tore down my old beat up couch today and hauled it off in my truck to the garbage container. The couch was old and wasn’t comfortable to sit on anymore and I was tired of looking it at…. and besides that, I bought the couch when I was in a bad relationship and it was a reminder of that every time I looked at it so it had to go. Now I have no couch, but I’ve got a lot more space in my living room. I think I kinda like having the space more than I liked having the couch. My mom asked me where I was going to sit when I told her that I threw out the couch and I told her that I still have a chair. And on top of that, I never have any company over because I don’t have friends that would come visit anyway and the friends that I do have that would come all live out of town or out of state…… so I really don’t think I need to worry about having furniture all that much since I’m usually sitting at my desk in front of the computer ALL OF THE TIME anyway.

Lately I have taken a big liking to Pace Picante Sauce Mild and Tostido’s. I mean I like them a lot! It has become one of my favorite snacks.

My latest brainstorm effort has been designing a logo for a new jewelry shop I want to open online, but I am in no rush to start that just yet. It is a lot of work to do something like that and I have a lot of other things going on so that is just sort of a side project for now…. but at least I have reached a point to where I am thinking about getting back into my jewelry making and other crafts that I love to do and wanting to get back into having my own craft shop online. I’m excited about that.

Oh yeah, one more thing….. I finally made it through the past six months that I needed to get my attendance record cleared at work so I no longer have to worry about fucking up too much if I miss a day at work…. I won’t get fired now as long as I keep my act together and take time off WISELY. Life just got a whole lot less stressful in that way. I wonder if I can go another six months without getting written up for some bullshit and get all the other little crap off my record that is being held against me cleared off. That would be awesome, but I know that isn’t going to happen because of my “don’t give a fuck” attitude at work haha.

For those of you who don’t know about Glee, it is a community site for gay men who want to communicate with other men without expecting anything. What I mean is this that Glee.com is not a “hook-up” site as most gay websites of this kind tend to be…. at least it hasn’t appeared to be anything like that since I joined. I haven’t really spent a lot of time there and that is only because I just haven’t had the time to spend there but there seems to be a lot of nice guys to chat with and just chill out and relax with. Anyway I may talk about the site more again sometime once I get a better feel for it, but for now I’m gonna go watch a movie or go outside and enjoy the unusual cool air we are having tonight.

I just realized that yesterday marked the 19th anniversary of my high school graduation. On June 2nd, 1989 I graduated from Beulah High School in Valley, Alabama. I was 18 years old that day. I remember the only person in my family who attended the graduation ceremony was my mother. My dad who at the the time had not yet adopted me, as sorry as he was for it, decided he would rather go hunting that night more than he would like to watch me receive my high school diploma. My two younger brothers weren’t at the ceremony either, but they were very young at the time still and I think they were with my grandmother or one of my aunts… I really can’t remember where they were exactly. We had the graduation ceremony on the football field and I remember the whole thing seemed to take forever. The speeches from the principle, the vice principle, the head coach, teachers, the band playing their songs, the hot June night air… I am so glad I don’t ever have to relive that day. All of the other guys and girls in my graduating class went to a graduation party after the ceremony. I was not invited. My mother took me out for dinner at a restaurant called Western Sizzlin’ which is still open almost 20 years later. After dinner my mother and I went home. Needless to say, if you couldn’t tell, I was not one of the popular kids in my school during my younger years. I would have loved to go to that party with everyone that night and as far as my dad not going to the ceremony…. well that wasn’t the only thing he missed out on because of his stupidity.

In the last 19 years I have only seen but just a few people I graduated high school with. In fact the last time I saw one of them, a girl named Crystal, was just a few weeks ago down at Theresa’s Cut-N-Corner where I get my hair cut. Her son was getting a hair cut, and she sat there the whole time and didn’t say one word to me. I don’t know if maybe she just didn’t recognize me or most likely she is still just as stuck up now as she was in high school. Oh well.

…………. but it still hurts like hell!! I got tired of wearing the bandages and that stupid leg brace so I took all that crap off of my leg this morning so my leg could “breathe” and so I could see how my knee is doing. The swelling has gone down some but it’s pretty bruised up as I had expected that it would be. Looks like I’ll be getting lots of bed rest this week.

If any of you out there have been keeping up on my website you would know that I recently started trying to get into shape. Well everything has been going ok up until last night. I’ve been going for walks, and started back into jogging again. Well last night I went jogging and tripped up over my own damn foot and landed on my left knee. I ended having to go to the hospital emergency room. Luckily the x-ray’s didn’t show any fractures. This is the doctors diagnosis of the damage I did to my knee. Diagnosis: BURSITIS - basically this is a small flat liquid filled sack that helps the gliding motion of the muscles and tendons over a joint which has been severely inflamed due to injury…. in other word I busted my knee pretty bad when I fell.

The doctor put me on bed rest and I’m supposed to keep my leg elevated and I’m not supposed to be walking around……. but I am not one to lay around on my ass if absolutely don’t have….. well in this case I’m supposed but I just can’t. This morning after I went into work and told my boss what happened I took the day off and then I went to buy a lottery ticket and then I went and spent the whole morning at the lake. The weather was just absolutely beautiful and those of you who know me knows how much I love going to the lake on a pretty day…. so I couldn’t help myself.

Anyway, now I’m at home laying in bed, working on my website, surfing the internet, chillin’ out in front of the air-conditioner and resting like I’m should be doing. The doctor gave me four huge loratab pills for pain but I have not taken any of them, nor any other pain medicine. I figure if I can walk on my leg and not scream bloody murder then I don’t need the pain pills. So anyway there are some pictures below so that you can see what I did and the stupid leg brace I have to wear for the next few days.

I am kinda sad about this because I don’t know how long this is going to take to heal and the reason it makes me sad is because I was just really getting to exercising again and was soon hoping to start doing a little weight lifting. Now all of that will have to be put aside until I get better. Also I may have to take some time off from work because of this and that ain’t good!